its been said...

its not about how many times you fall, its about how many times you get up. although that quote is a little over used and somewhat elementary, the more you think about it the deeper it gets.
so its been a few months since my last post, it might seem like forever now and i'm sure a lot of our fans have lost interest but that's life and we've all excepted it... time to move on. the past few months have been pretty tough on my soul as well as very enlightening and surely a blessing in disguise. since the release of the RE:Public a lot has changed but a lot has not. if you're a local fan you might've already heard the good news regarding Doug; not sure i feel like discussing his personal life but lets just say that we're all extremely happy for him.
there comes a time in every musician's life when you take a step back from the limelight and walk off stage to re-charge the battery and take care of the things you've put on hold for so long; although in my case i had no other choice. i was running around the puzzle trying to hold all the pieces together, and i fell. i spent a long minute on the ground trying to figure out where everything went wrong and why great artists have a hard time making a living off of something they love. while in my search for answers i lost touch a lot of my good friends, and made some new ones. one in particular was an old friend that i stopped hanging out with after high school (such is life). he was always there at our concerts fully involved in the NH movement but never really chilled outside of the venues until he started coming to my work. we slowly started politicin' about the state of hip hop, reviewing new albums and artists,, just basically trying to see where we still stood in the whole grand scheme of things. one day we started talking about the hiatus of GS and if we were ever going to release another album. from there we reminisced about the days when we used to get fucked up and freestyle for hours, followed by writing graffiti and smoking more shit. those days are behind us now and we've both cleaned up our acts but something was missing; the overall spirit of hip hop that flowed thick in our veins. that night i went home and youtubed a bunch of classic videos from "the golden era" and it started coming back to me. i thought about putting the videos together and releasing a weekly online video show but the next day i was back on my ass concerning myself with bills and other bullshit. its been a constant battle of falling and getting back up since then and today is no different. at the moment i'm fully in tuned with getting my solo project together; all the pieces are in place and my fam is back on board... hence the new post. i can't promise i will stay in this realm (although i would give anything to) its just not reality at the moment. as for now i have a small list of easy goals i plan on accomplishing and then go from there. i learned a lot since the last album, about life and music, so i'm going to do my best to apply them and keep it moving.
i plan on updating this blog as much as possible until the release of my solo LP which is not being rush but actively pursued. life happens and we must keep keeping on, so bare with me. if i end up losing my mind or getting meds for the depression and anxiety then i'll be sure to note that but until then i plan on continuing the journey life has mapped out of me. i hope ya'll roll with me, its going to be one hell of a roller coaster ride.
that's it for now; gstateofmind ver.2.0 coming soon






godspeed,
-buGS